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Free
03:20
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LETS GO!
It's something that you hide, but you hide it down below
No one could ever find, no one will ever know
See, but I know what it is, it's right behind your eyes
Abhorrent like a sin, a bitter compromise
So you wear it on your sleeve, hoping no one else will notice, but they notice
You tried so hard to believe, so it's easier to say it’s not the right way, it’s not the right way
If we could see years from now, would we be in the same places that we are?
We must move on somehow
If we could see years from now, would we be in the same places that we are now?
We must move on somehow
We’re both suffering in silence (suffering all the same)
Living just to make ends meet is never where I want to be so I
I'm done suffering in silence (I choose to end this pain)
This is not the way we have to be
Every word and thought we put to song
Would be nothing without you along
I hope you see that We Are All, We Are Free
If we could see years from now, would we be in the same places that we are?
We must move on somehow
If we could see years from now, would we be in the same places that we are now?
We must move on somehow
We’re both suffering in silence (suffering all the same)
This is not the way we have to be, we are all, we are free!
I’m done suffering in silence (I choose to end this pain)
This is not the way we have to be.
Artwork: Natasha Primus
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Keep holding out your hand
Well maybe it'll save you
Yeah, well I’ve been thinking is it really so bad to want to know what being all alone and living on the edge feels like sometimes
Cuz lately I’ve gotten too complacent, grown too fucking jaded, building up these walls I’m trapped inside
Slide down right down into whatever helps me to feel better, when everyone’s around
Can you hear this sound?
(You once told me we'd be better off dead
Well now, I couldn't agree more
Time to take it all away
I've got to look, search, and find my peace in dismay)
(Hey, Hey!) Burn it down, burn it down
(Hey, Hey!) let’s find the beauty in the flames tonight
(Hey, Hey) if they come looking for the start, they can find me by the fire with a canvas and a lighter
Oh it’s been a long day, long way, long strain on anything involving happiness
Cuz I’ve been dying to hit the bottom, help me with my problems, so I can begin this slow ascent
Paint me make me your Mona Lisa, show me who to be then burn it to the ground, can you hear this sound? I’m screaming now
(Hey, Hey!) Burn it down, burn it down
(Hey, Hey!) let’s find the beauty in the flames tonight
(Hey, Hey) if they come looking for the start, they can find me by the fire with a canvas and a lighter
Keep holding out your hand
Well maybe it'll save you
Yeah, well I’ve been thinking
Is it really so bad?
Guest Feature: Tanner Greely of Odds Of An Afterthought
Artwork: My Life In Rewind
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Not Alone (ft Exxe)
03:59
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So for now, just listen to the waves, be calm and let the tides roll in, wash away your sins
It gets better, the less you think about the day you die
If it's all the same, then we’ve lost our way, we say
(We say there must be a reason for the thoughts in our heads and the spaces we feel led)
Because I don't have a reason why, I just know that there is something more than what we’re searching for
It's the answer to questions we don't even know we have
But it's all the same, then we’ve lost our way, we say
(We say we know that we have to look beyond our own eyes if we're to find the truth
Of the path I must take, there's not a doubt in my mind, in the end I know you’ll see)
So if you open your eyes, and you start to realize there's something bigger than us floating in the sky (you’ll see)
Then you’ll try to find out what it's really about, just because you have opinions, doesn't mean they're not insignificant
So if you open your eyes and you start to realize
Take it all in, let the past die, feel the waves when they crash let them capsize
Not religious but I feel I’m getting baptized
All my past crimes came together from my past lives
Know the pain, you’re alone, it’s a pastime
Every night you tell yourself that it’s the last time
Tears keep falling, you can’t find the answers
Sick of living life inside a cell, it’s a cancer
I don't wanna be the one to break
Trying to see the future, what’s it take
People talk but I can see it’s fake
Tired of being the person that I hate
I’m gonna bet it all if my soul it can handle
Pray I’ll make it back on my own, it's a gamble
When you got your back to a wall at a standstill, never forget
You're not alone
(And if this world is all there is, then what are we, and if this world is all there is, then it's a long road home)
Now we stand among the clouds, we walk on the shores, and we are not alone
(We’ve seen all that there is to see, the dawn of the new age starts with me)
Now we stand among the clouds, we walk on the shores, and we are not alone
(We’ve seen all that there is to see, the dawn of the new age starts with me)
We’re not alone
Guest Feature: EXXE
Artwork: Nicolas O'Cleirigh
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Lovesick (ft Levi Henry)
03:16
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I let you run away again
Because it seemed like you wouldn't get that far this time
See, I thought that you might settle to have a day to slip away
It could fix this life of pain only in vain
So now we’re on our own
I’ll write the saddest song if you just sing along
I’ll write the saddest song for you
Because it isn't quite enough to have someone that you're in love with
You went and fucked it up because you're lovesick
(I can feel myself spiraling down
I'm sorry lover, but I couldn't change for you now)
Now we stand up on the cliff, looking down on where we used to be
My heart sinks just as I realize the climb is why I feel so weak
Now we stand close to the edge, thinking maybe, just maybe, there's something that could save me
No other way, only thing to say is that you’ve made up your bed now, just don't forget to lay down
Because it isn't quite enough to have someone that you're in love with
You went and fucked it up because you're lovesick
(I can feel myself spiraling down, I'm sorry lover but I shouldn't change for you now)
Because it isn't quite enough to have someone that you're in love with
You went and fucked it up because you're lovesick
(I can feel myself spiraling down, I'm sorry lover but I wouldn't change for you now)
I’ll write the saddest song if you just sing along
(I'd rather be alone than be torn apart)
I write the saddest song for you
(I'd rather be alone)
I watched you walk away
Guest Feature: Levi Henry
Artwork: Dillon Bauman
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A gift we’ve yet to give, a risk we’ve yet to take
This is life, this is love, this is pain
“I love you’s” never said, a promise never made
This is fear, this is hope, this is faith
We keep marching on despite the overwhelming odds
That say we’ll never make it, never reach it on our own
We’ll try to wake them up, or let them sleep it off
Either way, we’re okay with where we are
(We keep marching on, we keep marching on)
This is where we all belong, smothered right between the arms of the ones we choose to love
But now we’re holding on so tight that we’re breaking all our bones
Just to prove we are alive
Have we gone too far? Or not quite far enough?
This is risk, this is change, this is heart
We’re never giving up, until we reach that point
That we see in our hearts and in our dreams
(We keep marching on, we keep marching on)
This is where we all belong, smothered right between the arms of the ones we choose to love
But now we’re holding on so tight that we’re breaking all our bones
And it proves we are alive
I know, that I’ve been the wrong one before
I’m trying to make my way out of this hole
If we don’t let go time won’t move on, we’ll hold on forever
Guest Feature:Jason Douglas of Lake Avenue
Artwork: Grace Edinger
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It’s so defeating, my soul feels hollowed out
But it’s how I’ve always been
It’s my cage, my cell, my pen I’m living in
Say “Cut the locks, bend the bars, break the wall”
That’s all easier said than done
Cuz it’s when I try to walk away
It feels easier just to stay
So the bed that I made is the grave where I’ll lay
Such a shame
(This pain has taken a hold of me
With a grip that will never release)
I’m repeating the same mistakes I’ve made
(Believing I’ve come so far)
And it keeps putting me back in the same place
(And leaving just gets so hard)
So why try when I fail
(Over and over again)
I’ll just hide, from myself
(Hoping I can pretend)
Imperfect humans being
Imperfect human beings
(With another breath fleeting from my lungs
lost memories of being happy, of feeling whole
Now I'm engulfed with this sensation of sinking, I’ve fallen into this hole)
So after all this time, I’ve had enough to think
Probably way too much to drink because I’m feeling every little thing
The sting of knowing that I’ll never truly rest for things I know I shouldn’t have said
And beliefs that poison every thought that’s in my head
If all of this can’t slow me down
And no drugs can shut it out
Which wall will stop me now?
No space for peace of mind
No room for compromise
No love to victimize.
(What if we could be together and so free
Would you give me a reason
To burn it to the ground
We feel so sick and now
I feel like everything keeps calling me back)
But if we don’t let go time won’t move on
What if all you know is letting go, how can you hold on to hope?
The fall didn’t hurt as much as I thought it would but it’s not over yet,
The earth shifts underneath my back
I wasted years of my life trying to fortify a wall that was never there
So was it me or my panic attacks
That broke false sense of balance, that momentary stasis
It’s both deadly and beautiful to run out of solutions
Remember me as a fork in the road
Paint a picture in which I’m half of a feather you let go
It’s drifting and fading, but if that’s how you need me
Then I’m resting and longing for resolution
Put bright shades on dark memories, if they show through, keep painting
Keep working, forgetting, you know it’s what’s best - let go
You know it’s what’s best - let go
You’re half as strong as you know
Guest Feature: Kyler Zachman of Hailing Andromeda
Guest Feature: Gabe Reasoner of Careful Gaze
Artwork: WSSG Designs
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Sick (ft Athereal Rose)
04:06
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Step 1: Stare at the sun that you wish never sets so this day never ends then it goes
Step 2: Hope it's not you that's the only one living in darkness convincing themselves
Step 3: Try to believe that there's somehow a light where the darkness survives
And it keeps on repeating
It keeps on repeating
The night stays the same and the darkness remains
(It never changes)
Living in the same damn day
Over and over it seems
Try to tell myself that it's not the same as yesterday
This can't be all there is to life
But you see it as the truth so it's really up to you so now what?
Why would I rather live than die
You say it's just a claim but it's really all the same to me
Step 4: same as before except now there’s a hole where there once was a soul then it goes
Step 5: barely alive but I’m still hanging on if not only because I
Get a little sick (sick) kick out of feeling like the only one living in darkness convinced that it keeps on repeating
Keeps on repeating
The sun stays in place but the nightmare remains
(It never changes)
Living in the same damn day
Over and over it seems
Try to tell myself that it's not the same as yesterday
This can't be all there is to life
But you see it as the truth so it's really up to you so now what?
Why would I rather live than die
You say it's just a claim but it's really all the same to me
It’s just so easy to let go
But you see it as the truth so it's really up to you so now what?
And if I’m gone, they’ll never know
You say it's just a claim but it's really all the same to me
I’ve got this feeling that I can’t outrun
An inescapable darkness of dread and failure that I can’t really put to tongue
It consumes me mind and soul
And I know I should look for hope
But oh my god why won’t it end
Living in the same damn day, over and over it seems
Try to tell myself that it’s not the same as yesterday
This can't be all there is to life
But you see it as the truth so it's really up to so now what
Why would I rather live than die
You say it's just a claim but it's really all the same to me.
I’ve fallen far from happiness
But you see it as truth so it’s really up to you
This is my chance to suffer less
You say it’s just a claim but it’s really all the same to me
Oh my god I just want it to end
Guest Feature: Athereal Rose
Artwork: Dan Edinger
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Lay on, the days gone by the way
‘Cause it's easy when you sit and stare at nothing
Writings all along the wall that prove you know it all
Something’s hiding in the silence, cull the mundane
Because I had to see, it with your eyes just to believe
So just know I mean it
Every lie I said, that you're the only one
That could ever see
A Discovery
It’s so easily forgotten, listen to the options
That there's something that we’re missing
Something so consistent
Hiding right beyond our stars
Waiting for us to find where we are
Searching through the darkness
Hoping that we stumble on a sense of purpose
But some words are never said
Some books are never read
(Life goes by and fades in time)
But we need some meaning in our lives
Someone to fall behind
Something to tell us why
Are we even alive?
And it keeps calling me, calling me back, the only other way from that is try to
Hold on to reason and save some face
And it keeps calling me, calling me back,
(I'll never be the same)
So I hold on to reason and save some face
Guest Feature: Tim Martin
Artwork: Trey Korte
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We locked eyes from across the room
I know just what you're thinking
Why’s it suddenly so hard to breathe
Feels kinda like you're sinking
Hopefully you can see you're better off behind me
This only ever ends one way
Silent and wishing you can be the one to save me
I don’t think there’s any other way to say it
(I don’t need you)
It's easier for you
I don't know what it means when you're holding me tightly
Tired of staying up late
Trying to keep head straight
Cuz something has changed, nothing is the same for me
But I've got some things I need to say
But you keep holding so tightly
It's best we go our separate ways
And this is the reason
My heart is breaking after thinking about all this time,
I was never really ready
Compelled to fake it until we made it into something right but
I've seen the signs
You know me all too well
That’s why I'm never really ready
And this love was bound to fail
And you understand
I won't hold my breath
If no one’s listening, can you hear me out there
Hold your breath
You're only getting stronger, it's not getting any harder
I don't know what it means when you're holding me tightly
And this is the reason
Guest Feature: Catherine Lexvold of Breakthrough
Guest Feature Kevin Buschkowsky of Ithomiid
Artwork: Trevor Skarie
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Remember when he said “I’ll relieve you of this pain that you're holding cause I know what you're going through”
You said “No thank you sir, I'm doing just fine” because you didn't want anyone wasting your time so
You sit at home feeling so low that you can barely stand
Start to regret, second guessing what it could have meant
You'll never know, you'll never understand because you didn't want anyone wasting your precious time
No second chance
So wanderer, wander my way again
There's so many words that we left unsaid
Divided, yet offered in to services unlike
Our distorted, contorted excuses for our lives
Complicit, yet explicitly ignoring all the signs
Obsessive, possessive, for everything we hide
(In retrospect, you acquiesce, I had demons in my eyes)
I couldn't live my life as if there's any other way)
As if there's any other way
(The choices that I made define me,
As if there's any other way)
As if there's any other way
Way back when you said “I know the truth”
I didn't want to know if there was a better way
I just want to know tomorrow is coming
Way back when you said “I know the truth”
I didn't want to know if there was a better way
I just want to know tomorrow’s still coming
When you said “I know the truth”
I want to know if there was a better way
Please just just tell me that tomorrow’s still coming
Guest Feature: Ben Hintz of The Bad Man
Artwork: Alexis Politz
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11. |
Holding On
04:50
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Here I am, at the edge, the edge of time
Just as the colors bleed, the canvas collapses around every dream
The heaviest reds begin to fall, cover up the ground and shade everything in violet
And then it fades to blue and grey
The world flickers gold just as it starts to decay
Its darkening, coloring everything
But then the brightest of greens grow out of every seam until it’s blank
(But black and white, they absorb and reflect, they live in it all,
Disappear and connect the dots that lead the way down a journey of all that will start to decay)
If we’re endlessly expanding into another stage of life
Then where do we gain our peace of mind
When everything that we love we outgrow in time
So no I don’t think it matters one way when everything starts to fade away
There’s no point to the things we go through since everything’s staged
Yet we’re always, always wondering
We are, we are
Always, always wandering
We are, we are
(Here I am at the edge of time)
Always, always wondering
(Here I am at the edge of time)
We are, we are, we are
All
Artwork: Sharron Doran
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The Atlantis Theorem Minneapolis, Minnesota
It's a feeling you have felt before. But you know, deep inside, it waits. Breathe heavy to prepare. Dive deep to discover.
Time slows under water.
The Atlantis Theorem is Daudi Long, Sam Howell, and Ben Tosel.
Modern Hard Rock from the upper mid-west.
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